Lately, I have seen the Lord’s hand in my life daily. He helps me to accomplish all that is on my plate. He helps my mind to be clear and focused in my schooling. He helps me to stay kind and gentle with my children amidst the hustle of crazy busy schedules. He helps me to manage my stress. He helps me to keep my priorities straight at work, loving His children. He even helps keep my bank account sufficient for my needs. I don’t know how the money stays in there, but it just does. He takes such good care of me. I KNOW without Him, life would be very difficult right now, but honestly, I feel I am living so rich.
Lately, I have been listening to a book about the life of President Dallin H. Oaks. I love learning the biographies of the my Savior’s disciples! They inspire me completely. One part I listened to today spoke of how President Oaks became a better man when he married his wife, that she inspired him and worked as a partner with him. He was a B student before marrying her, then became an A student after. He became more spiritual, more focused, more directed, worked harder, grew with her and became more holy. I find that truly beautiful.
Lately, I’ve been pondering my role as a servant of the Lord, Jesus Christ. He knows I am here to serve Him as He needs. I know there is more to come and am just patiently waiting. I try to be and do the best I can in the meantime.
Lately, I have asked in prayer, “Am I going to be okay?” I still have moments where I can’t see beyond what is right in front of me, and at times, that is overwhelming and bleak. I allow doubt and fear to taunt me, and that can be scary and hard for me. But honestly, I don’t really care where I am or what I have to go through as long as I know that I’m going to be okay eventually. As I ask that question of Him, “Am I going to be okay?” He reassures me that I am, that I just need to keep moving forward, continue to be patient. He is leading the way. I may not feel okay in that moment, but I can drudge through the dark and dreary if I have to to reach His redeeming light.
Lately, tonight in fact, I read children’s books to my kids before bed time. This has always been my most favorite part about parenting! And for fun, because we don’t do this much anymore as my kids are mostly older, I brought down three children’s books to read tonight. I couldn’t help but smile with delight as I listened to my soon to be 12 year old son exclaim with genuine enthusiasm, “Oh I love that book!” when he saw that I brought down one of his favorites, Hurry Home Little Kittens. He has no idea how much that comment fills my heart with satisfaction. I can’t wait to be a grandma and get to do it all over again!!!!
Forever and ever and ever grateful.
