Today was the first day that I got 10,000 steps since I was in the hospital. Yay! I’m making gains. I’ve made sure that I have walked every day for a while now and am slowly getting more and more distance in. I am up to over about a mile and a half already. This morning I was walking my fav trial by myself and got scared, tho. Sometimes I still have moments of dizzyness when doing continuous physical activity like walking. It scares me because it feels just like it did when I first had the episode, but it goes away instead of staying. But I get scared walking alone thinking it would be a while before somebody would find me if it did turn bad and I went down like the first time. Yikes! That would not be good.
I’ve also started stretching and yoga like movements. I plan to go back to yoga classes after fall break. I will see doctors during the break and so should know more about how I’m healing and whether or not the tear is healing itself etc around that time. My vision is still off sometimes. It is hard to focus on letters and words which makes reading and paperwork or computer work difficult. This is awful and makes life hard and I so super bad hope it goes away.
The most frustrating thing, tho, is the cognitive part of it. My brain simply will not hold information and I am a big space case right now. It overwhelms me. For example, today I went and walked through some model homes in an area I am thinking about moving to. I was looking at the different floor plans on paper and the options for building, but I couldn’t process the floor plans. It’s like I could see where a bedroom was, but I couldn’t hold the information long enough for my brain to create an entire picture, so it was pretty pointless and I couldn’t tell the sells agent which I liked the best because I just couldn’t piece them all together, if that makes sense. It’s hard to explain, but so super frustrating. It’s what people don’t see. It’s also what makes work really hard for me right now. I have so many IEP meetings coming up and deadlines on so many things. I am going to have to spend a lot of time at home or after hours to pull it all together because I am just too slow processing it right now. That makes me sad.
Mostly, I am good and happy. Life is good, yo.
Forever grateful!
