Most of the time, like again today, it’s for not being strong enough to not hurt. It’s for not being strong enough to rise above it; for being stuck in it over and over and over again. It’s for being selfish; for losing focus. It’s for the lonely that breaks me down and makes me weak and compromised. It’s for the uncertainty and moments of wavering. I know God is way more patient with me than I am myself, but honestly, I’m so tired of hurting for the same things over and over again and not being able to rise above it and move beyond it. So tired of wasting my time.
Even though I move through this cycle repeatedly, I know that God wants me to keep trying, that He is there guiding me through my mess continually. I am so grateful I can try over and over and over again.
