I was listening to Julie Beck’s talk from 2007, “What Latter Day Saint Women Do Best: Stand Strong and Immovable.” She mentioned asking, “Lord, who needs my help today?” in our prayers. So tonight, I kneel by my bedside, as I always do, and offer in my prayer, “Who needs my help?” And immediately in my mind are the words … “You do!” Hahaha. I love that Heavenly Father has a sense of humor!
I need my own help. That’s funny. But it is very true. I feel lately the Lord has been calling me to care more deeply for myself. To pay attention. To hear His words and guidance in my life. Often I feel that He is urging me to set all things aside that function as distractions or scenic routes to Him. It is a quickening process of deciphering the world from spiritual matters, and a test of my discipline, heart, and desire. What do I love most?
My life has recently been a mess of sorts. I can feel the dissonance within, and often I wonder at how I resolve it. . . or do I?
Dissonance may simply be part of life in this time. I can’t remember where I heard it but recently someone spoke of how the righteous people in the latter days would be praying for the Savior to quicken His arrival. I can recall Elder Holland asking exactly for that in the most recent General Conference. At times, the dissonance rings so loudly that it is almost unbearable. I know that everything is okay. I know that it will be okay. I know the peace of the Savior, Jesus Christ, in my life. It is real. When I can calm my internal life and be still, that peace is all around me. Only the Savior offers that peace. Only He can amidst the echoing dissonance of our day. I am so grateful to know it! It is how I survive. It is how I lead my children. It is how I smile with confidence and share my happiness with my students. It is my foundation and rock.
Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
John 14:27
Forever Grateful!
