I didn’t feel well today. But when you are a single mom, life doesn’t stop for you just because you don’t feel well. There is nobody to do any of the work for you. So as I placed the dinner that I knew my kids would only half heartedly appreciate and probably end up getting their own snacks eventually anyway on the table for them, I sat down with them and just began crying. I am so tired. Days like this, when I am weak, are just too much. My bucket is being filled in areas on a regular basis, but is completely empty in other areas. I am missing balance in my life and it wears me down. I try to remember 1 corinthians 10:13 that says God will not suffer us more than we can handle and will always provide us a way out. So what is my way out? I really don’t know right now.
I love that my kids are gentle and forgiving. I am not a perfect mom and will never claim to be. I love them so much and appreciate their patience and kindness towards me, especially in these moments of weakness. Forever grateful for my wonderful family! They are everything. I am also grateful for hot bubble baths and the soothing sounds of classical piano tunes.
