One thing that I have been pondering a lot over the last several months is how my spiritual patterns and habits have changed. It sorta has thrown me off and I stress it. I used to have time to study the scriptures extensively, which I did. But now my time has been stretched with work and kids and schooling. I often have to choose between all important things as to which will get my attention. Although I still read from my scriptures daily, I haven’t been able to study extensively like I used to. I haven’t been able to journal write as much as I used to. These things are very important to me in my life, so not being able to do them as much as I am used to do causes me some anxiety. After pondering the other day, it came to me that maybe it’s okay that things change, that maybe I can rely on the study I have done and the work I have done spiritually to grow my testimony and knowledge up to this point to hold me up for a time (or rather move me forward). While pondering the other day, I had the impression that my efforts should be put into serving people and physically doing the work I have studied. I have my own family who could use a lot of love right now, a sick brother, in particular. The time I do have should be on serving people, studying what I can in my scriptures, praying everyday and continually in my heart, and journal writing as I can. All of these things are important. I know I can use my time more wisely and need to better focus to do so, but at the same time it is okay that focuses, or the way I do things, needs to change. We evolve as we grow, I need to remember that and not sweat change, but make sure my heart is still right and I am doing the work to be guided by the Spirit daily. Those are my grounding rules.
Forever grateful for the opportunity to grow and evolve and for a loving Savior who offers insights as they are sought after.
