Here’s what I can tell you …
Everything is going to be okay. Hand it all over to your Heavenly Father and bare your heart to him, and it will all be okay. I promise you. I don’t know why I know, but I just know. Everything will be okay.
He knows you. He knows you waaaayy better than you know yourself AND He loves you still. Be at peace with that. Accept it. Accept His love; let it happen even though you are undeserving. This is what real love is. Let it fill your heart. Let it make you whole. Let it make you radiate with gratitude.
Forever grateful for His love!