Navigation.
How do I live in the world and not be of the world? Where is the line drawn? The polarization of our existence is felt, for sure. The pressure is on. I know what I want; I chose sides long ago, but do I know how to get there? What takes priority in my life? How much time do I have? What is important? How do I manage it all? Where should my focus be? Navigation, that’s what I’m trying to figure out. I feel like I’m being pulled in many directions. Can I decipher the way?
Polarization.
As I continue to feel the pull of this, I feel like Peter. “…and when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus. But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me.” My faith is great, like Peter’s, until I look around and see the storms surrounding me. I see difficult decisions. I see people I love and feel responsible for refusing the gospel in their lives. I see avenues that I could easily fall to Satan’s traps. I see uncertain futures. I see impatience, wondering how long I have to wait. I see loneliness and exhaustion. I see children who need me to lead them. I see financial stresses and deadlines. I see all of it. And when I do, I, like Peter, find myself afraid and begin to sink. The only way I survive it is to lock my eyes back on my Savior and to hold firm.
I believe in Him. I believe in His promises.
Forever grateful to hope in the Savior.
