When I went for my walk this morning, I walked with uneasiness in my soul. I was off but wasn’t sure what I was missing. I listened to conference talk after conference talk and as I did, the Spirit slowly started to speak to me. My focus. My focus was off.
I have been a little caught up in the world lately. I have been allowing anxieties to build and stress me. And I have lost sight of the beauty of things. I watched the sun rise this morning, and I felt its warmth comfort my cool cheeks. In that quiet, peaceful moment, I knew God again, like I had been missing Him. I had been missing Him.
Sometimes we just need to pause and step back for a moment. We need to allow ourselves to breathe. It’s okay to take some time. The world right now is and isn’t allowing this all at the same time. It is a mixed message. Quarantined with time … and a pandemic causing anxiousness in health, economy, and faith. Step back and take some time.
I know that my focus is supposed to be on serving my Savior. I have been taught that lesson much throughout my life and know of its surety. And yet, my focus still gets stuck on me sometimes. I don’t like this.
As I pondered it today, I saw it as a teaching moment for my kids, so I decided to have them choose a friend that they have missed hanging out with during this crazy time to take a cookie and kind note to. We ran to Crumbl, grabbed some cookies and doorbell ditched some friends with cookies and a note. It’s sorta silly and super simple, but it did the job and took mine and my kids’ focus off of ourselves and onto reaching out to others.
I am so grateful for gentle reminders from the Spirit. I don’t deserve them. I screw up so often, but I am so grateful for a loving and forgiving Heavenly Father, who at times may need to distance Himself from me, but never abandons me.
Forever grateful for these reminders.
